. . . All My Chaosity . . .

but I'm nauseous just thinking about it. The more I consider it, the worse I feel about the Dr. turning the baby. Kara came on Friday, but Celeste was out of town and ABall was at work. So Kupcake was agreeable to turning, but as soon as Kara stopped blocking my pelvis, the child stuck something (knee? leg? bottom?) down in it. Hopefully she will have time to come by tonight, and she and B (and maybe Celeste, if she's really bored!) can try to turn her again with adequate assistance. I'm hoping she's bigger now, with less room to swim, and if we can get her head down there she won't be able to pull it back out? It sounds plausible in my head. I'm scheduled at the hospital for the external version tomorrow morning at 8:30am. The plan is to attempt to turn her, but if she won't turn I have a c-section scheduled for 1:30pm tomorrow afternoon. Now I'm thinking if we can't get her turned tonight, or at any rate if she's not engaged tomorrow a

and maybe making some gingerbread. There's so many snackies I want to make- though I can't eat many of them and we aren't expecting company or anything. I guess I could them to friends- I dunno. Dball and I saw some chocolate covered mini marshmallows at the store the other day. We decided we could just make our own but use the big marshmallows and put Christmas sprinkles and stuff on them. That would be easy enough.... I feel sorta bad that Dball has done so little in the way of school work the last month or so. He has done some Math, Reading, English worksheets I guess. Not every day or anything- sometimes only once-a-week. Except for the reading- which he does more often. He never seems to tire of playing Wii games- which would drive me stark raving mad. He also loves to pop popcorn and watch movies in the afternoons. I can only watch a few movies over and over (Pride & Prejudice, Sense & Sensibility, Wizard of Oz...) but he and his father seem to have

but I also feel ornery and don't really want to. =) I'm so far behind I may never catch up, but I can fill in a few of the highlights I guess. With this pregnancy I've had strong painful contractions for weeks now. I know they aren't "push-the-baby-out" contractions- but they're pretty uncomfortable at times. I keep hearing from women who've had several pregnancies that their contractions were worse with later pregnancies, plus when they were over 35 years old. Maybe that's what the deal is, I don't know. So I was scheduled to have the cerclage removed at 36 weeks and 2 days, but ended up in the ER with fairly strong contractions just after 35 weeks. My OB went ahead and removed the cerclage the next morning, and I promptly dilated to a fingertip. Two weeks later I remain dilated only a fingertip. I swear to you I dilated to 5 at 23 weeks with Logan a he literally fell out- sac and all. I don't know what's up with DBall (delive